Sick

I have mono. I must say, I am completely exhausted. Just typing this is wearing me out. It's crazy.

The Ugly Truth

So here is the ugly truth.
Nobody likes you when you are sad. If you are a happy positive person, you will have friends. The second you aren't smiling, they will leave.
I just thought that ya'll should know that. When you break down, people will break away. The question is, were those people ever worth it? The answer is always going to be no. The most important question though is, were those people ever worth it to you? That's the problem, most of the time, our answer is yes.

No More

I am daily being convicted. Of everything. One day I feel so unworthy, and the next day I feel like I don't pray enough, and the next day I feel like God's putting to much on me. Everything seems so bipolar lately. And I'm lost. To be blunt, the idea of running away to the beach, getting drunk, and just laying there sounds pretty darn appealing. Now, by all means, I won't do that, but it sure seems like a lovely idea. This life is tearing me apart. In fact, I've been saying bad words lately, which I never ever do. I've just been an angry person lately. I don't know why. I do know that I am weighed down by an invisible burden. These convictions are continuous and continuously getting harder. I just pray for strength. Because really all I have to do.

Where Is The Love?

So I just wanted to share with everybody a poem I wrote today.

Gasping For Breath, He Cried To The Heavens
Sitting There, Only Taking Life By The Seconds
A Struggle Within, Hidden From All
With A Scream And A Shout, Out Whimpers A Begging Call
A World Crashes, A Generation Dies, A Cry For Help Collides With The Skies
Nobody Will Save The Heart Of The Wearied Fool
No Amount Of Sorrys Would Rid Him Of What He Used To Do
The Past Creeps Up And Raids The Resentful
It Grabs The Sorry By Their Tears And Repudiates To Let Go
Forgiveness Is Stolen From The Sinner.
Society Has Ceased The "Forgive Us Our Trespasses As We Forgive Those Who Trespass Against Us" Part Of Faith
God Isn't In Lives Anymore
In Truth, Its The Tormented Fool Who Is Best Off
The One Who Forgives Those Who Continue To Hurt Him Is Strong
Its Those That Cause Him Pain That Are Weak.
All That Bring About Tears Are Not Men Of Worth, But The Devils Slaves
Cheers To The Sinners Giving And Asking For Forgiveness, For They Are The Heroes
Gods Love Is Living Through The Transformation Away From Their Wicked Past
May All Who Resist Their Success Be Wearied With Failure.
Let All Who Are Getting Better, Be Free To Do So Without Interference From Others.
So be Gone You Negative Foe. Banished Are You From The Kingdom Of Forgiveness
For Those Who Do Not Admit Their Sins And Repent Are Doomed To Never Be Forgiven When Their Time Of Sin Comes.

Now, it took me a while to realize exactly how little people understand. People are so judgmental. People tend to judge themselves on all of their good qualities and to judge everybody else on all of their bad ones. It's hard to realize, but its true. I'd even admit that I find myself doing it sometimes. But everybody has hard things in their life. Whether they are right of wrong, stop the hate. Where is the love?