My faith is still weak. But, for now, that is okay. For when I am weak, he is strong. My life has been so busy and so hectic. In the midst of it all, I've learned more about myself. Lately I've been pondering over the thought that I am so afraid to fall. Well, not that I am afraid to fail at something, but I am afraid to disappoint others when I do fall. My hope rests in the fact that when I do disappoint God, He not only forgives me, but completely wipes me clean of it all. As if I never did it. I have a job now, working at a gym. It's cool. I am so grateful for it too. I'm grateful for a lot of things, my friends, my family, and my opportunities. It is so hard to believe that in 19 days I will be on my way to compete. I can't help but smile so big every time I just see pictures of the Sheraton hotel. I would never have been able to guess that God had such HUGE things in store for me. When I was five, I wanted to be a princess, not a international taekwondo competitor. In all honesty though, I'd choose Team USA over that silly stuff any day. There is absolutely no better way to show my strength in him than that.
So yeah, lifes fine. I'm still longing for that intimate prayer life I used to have, but I have patience. It's completely impractacle for me to expect him to just wrap his arms around me and never let go. I will be tested. But most importantly, I will prevail.
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