Finding Faith

So the year is near an end. I feel like this should not even be called Finding Faith because in this year, I don't think I've found very much. If anything, this year will go down in my head as the year I lost it all. I don't think I'm going to post this link on Facebook anymore because it is too embarrassing. This blog did not uplift me, and did not share some amazing story with anyone. Instead, it walked on the journey with me. But, it was not a good journey. I had lost myself the second I got kicked out of the gym. My life is very good right now, I have a cute a guy, great friends, I pray daily, and I am as happy as I ever will be. However, there were days when I was doing better. For some reason I can't help but feel that the point of my life is over. I reached the climax, and now I'm just in the falling action. Just waiting and waiting for the conclusion. I am not depressed, just living. And living is fine. But before, I was really living. And that part of me will always be broken.