This Is What Life Is.

I'm feeling it. Really, really feeling it. It feels like my whole life as built up just for these moments. Truthfully, it has. Every second that I live is used to make me stronger during the next second. For a while, I'd always think, God, why oh why have you put me here. Of all people, why am I the one you chose for this situation. Now, I have found myself. I admit, it did take other peoples story's for me to realize it. When my friends talk about how they can't stop thinking about some guy, I no longer can relate to that longing feeling. When people say negative things about me, I do not feel that pain. I rely on absolutely nobody of this world to make me happy. Some very intelligent person who's name I do not recall once said, "You cannot be alone if you like the person you are alone with." Now, they left out something very important when they said that though. If i was to have said it, I would change it from person to people. For we are always with God besides ourselves. That is my secret to living the happiest life.
First, I have so much religious peace, for God is ever present in my heart and guides all my choices. When anybody talks about making out with their boyfriends or when their walking around holding hands, I feel no jealousy. If anything, I feel sorry for them. The love I have found is so much greater and will last so much longer. I can honestly say that God has delivered me from even the slightest bit of adulterous temptation. He has also saved me from so many of my devious habits. Although I am a very imperfect sinner, I have become so much better that before. Nothing but the grace of the Lord could have stopped some of the things I did.
Second, I love myself. I find that to be a huge accomplishment. I don't think I've been bored for the longest time. When I'm all alone, I can just think, clear my mind. I don't need other people there for me all the time. I can just sit in peace with myself. Every night, when I think back on the day. I would gladly put a stamp on it and claim it for everybody around the world to see its my own. The choices I make, I'm proud of. Nobody can take that away from me. I truly do love myself. Now that not to be mistaken in some conceited way. I would gladly give myself up for someone else. And I would do almost anything to make others feel loved too. When I say I love myself, I mean that I accept myself and wouldn't change who I am. I really don't think anybody should ever want to change themselves. Why be someone else when YOU are so much better?