We All Want What We Cant Have

Yesterday was the drive home from Iowa. We made the whole 15 hour trip in one day, which was pretty good I presume. But anyways... I got to thinking a lot on the drive back. And I mean a whole lot! I started thinking about everything. Everything that I missed. To be honest, that's a lot. But thinking about it all was such a negative feeling. It wasn't that my life is full of regret. Cause it most certainly is not! I firmly believe in living life with no regrets.
2 Corinthians 5:17 says
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
So I think that life should be a new journey each days. Put the past past you. As much as a try, there's always one thing that slips by me. Her death. Laura died a few years ago. To be honest, I wasn't a very close friend of hers. She was a great deal older than me. But when she was gone, I felt like it was my responsibility to go to her funeral. My friends that new her did. I didn't. I didn't have a ride. My mom wouldn't let me skip school for it. So I didn't go. That whole hour I sat there in class and cried. Now nobody noticed, and quite frankly, I'm glad they didn't. But it just sucked. I felt like I let her down. Even today. I would give anything to go to it. I missed saying goodbye to her. I'll never forgive myself for that.
But enough of that! I was thinking about the things I missed. what I wanted to come back. to relive. I miss my old friends. I miss my even older friends. I miss my old routines. I missed hanging out at Marie and Claire's houses'. But truthfully, I missed it all. Life is moving so quickly. Before I know it I'll be at college. I'll have kids. I'll be married. I can't go back. I'm living this life, now. And it's crazy. But so what, life's crazy.
"He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harms."
-Proverbs 13:20

I just want to walk with the wise and make sure my life is worth looking back at. I think it's a fabulous accomplishment all it's own to be able to look back at your past, and miss it. It shows you've done something truly great. I just would like to conclude this post with, I absolutely cant wait to do the even greater things God's planned for me.